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23 year old female scorpion. simple-minded gal who tends to make things reali complicated. i'm fairly organized [at tyms!!] & has beknowned to be a PERFECTIONIST. fav colors are apple green,red,orange & black. proud owner of apple green hyundai getz. appreciates nothing but e truth. known to be goddamn stubborn.

license class 2b. to do a degree in english. more lots money!! lose weight!!! modify my green baby.




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08 February, 2009






"dun hate me, dun regret wat we had.
dun forget me
& dun ever say i never loved u
coz u noe i did..."


i cant remember e reason why i stopped writing in blog. i used to lurve pouring out every single details of my oh-so-drama life. sometimes i wonder is dis for me or others to read?

all i haf in mind is dat dis is a perfect reminder of who i was, am & wants to be. juz imagine if one day, amnesia hits me n nobody reali noes who i am; or worse ders no one i can trust wif in telling me e truth abt me, all dis journals wuld be a great help. its part of who i am, even thou der r parts dats not written.

got dis idea from a sophie kinsela book, "Remember me?" its about a gal who erased out 3 yrs of her life, not remembering how & why she became e person she is now. its a gd read, but not so addictive as compared to all her other novels - shopaholics series. man i lurve those. read every single one.

a fren once said, shes far too unrealistic. always shopping!! deep inside me, i totally agreed. shes dis outrageous spendthrift wif e nid to go on a shopping diet. yet luckily for her, found a partner who's rich & wealthy enuf to marry 3 of her. things like dis only happens in books eyy??

not reali. it happened to my sis didnt it?



good life, no work. gets all e tings she wants. juz by becoming someone's wife. hehe.






ooohhh!!! & also i've become an aunt too!!! born prematurely to both yusli & nico shafiqa,

e world welcomes e arrival of little NAUSHIN ALEXIS, 3 mths earlier den expected.
still at e hospy, getting help to breathe properly.

warmth of home.

dis lil' niece of mine is a tough cookie. e docs said she had no chance of surviving, but she did. & growing well now, even thou not chubby & fat as other babies. but she's fine. & so adorable!!!


juz looking at her can make my day. =))
my sis loves dressing her up & wearing for her headbands, coz people thinks she's a boy without it. hehe. but most clothes bought she cant wear yet coz she's super tiny, even some premie clothes r too big for her.

sometimes wen she gets really cranky she gets on ur very nerves..!! no patience during feeding time either.
even so,
dis lil angel is being loved by my mom & dad so much, dat dey had refused to come home to our own house n bunk in der instead, taking care of e baby at nite. sacrifices of e grandparents huh.
cnt wait till she's bigger so i can bring her out to play. now its e 'carrying & sleeping' period. not much fun yet. but i noe dis r e best days of a baby's life before dey learn how to walk & talk. *winkz* u noe wat i mean.


aniwaes. i cant remember why i stopped writing, wen i loved penning my tots so much. n everytime someting comes to mind, e damn comp is not in front of me. n by e time it is, i already forgotten my tots. haix. sometimes i pen it down in my organiser, which btw now is full of super personal tots i had, but e space is damn limited!! & i cant say it out on e net either. private.



see my plight??




updates on my "drama" life.
im now mending a betrayed & broken hart, which i dun wana go into details.

dis seems to be e story of my life thou.
fall in lurve for a long time. thinking its a serious relationship.evryting is good & swit.

den bam!

everyting goes down in e drain, & im left to fend for myself.

i started writing dis blog wen i was first wif my fiancee. was so in lurve. so proud of it. until everting goes wrg wen he decided to haf some fun on his own. so dat was gdbye den. it took awhile to get over. but eventually...

den came my other 'lifelong' boyfriend, irul. who saved me from insanity from losing my fiancee. always der, holding on. everyting was perfect. 'cept dat he had "revenge" embedded in his mind.


now im writing again, in a state of broken hearted.
dunno how many more to come.
der goes my hope of a happy ending.

no more hoping la.
juz take e day as it comes la.
dats e best i cn do nw...
nitez.

04 December, 2008

i'm a year older now.






uuurrrggghhh.
why cant it stop at 21?
been wanting to upload pix to my blog & been trying to also actively be writing in it,
but i'm juz tooooooooo tired!


xcuses of e city people, i noe.





been bunking in wif sis at her plc actually dis past few wks.
in fact whole family is.

aniwaes, some pix from my bday outing.
me & sis camwhoring while waiting for movie 007 to start at Great World City.
courtesy of daddy & company for arranging a family outing on my bday. =)



after movie, we went to vivo city to haf dinner at Earl Swenson's. a lil bit more high-class than normal swenson's.
me & my bday cake, which seemed to haf disappear in e pix.




no bday gifts from anyone thou. =((
guess i am a lil too old for anything.

OMG. I AM 23 YRS OLD. 23. DAT'S 7 YRS OFF TO E BIG 30!!!!


wat haf i been doing for e past 22 yrs???
der's not much time left!!!!


u mite tink i'm having a midlife crisis juz abt now.



i guess i am. a lil bit.
i'll tell u why....











































yes people. my one & only younger sister is married already.
(actually its been 7 mths now...)

married!!
my younger sis!!
blissfully bethrothed to her 5-yrs boyfriend, yus.

& yes, dats me in e middle.
no one beside me.
juz me all alone.






at 23.

how depressing is dis?!?!?

me & bubblez...
to e guy's side we go...








of coz i was very happy dat my sis found someone who culd love & take care of her.
& my parents adore my adik ipar too.


















i juz wish it culd happen to me also......someday.









im 23, for god's sake! & e clock's ticking.
not slowly, i'm afraid.




& eversince sis got married, i've suddenly taken over her place as e baby in e family.
no more staying home alone....
daddy sends & picks me up wereva i wana go.....
no more piercings or tattoos allowed - orders from sis & mummy......
still thinking of having fun in e sun....


best of all,
pampered by mummy, daddy & sis! =)








der are pros & cons of it all.














also comes e pressure from relatives asking wen's my turn.
dun ask.
i dunno!!!










dun wana worry bout it first.
signing out,













04 October, 2008

its been a long time since dis pg been sleeping.



time to wakey-wakey.
start working on my language development & vocabulary perfection.





as if.
but so wat?
its my blog.



i write wat i wana.

















not today tho.
too many ideas. too lil time.



dun we always haf dat prob? tee-hee.











btw, selamat hari raya aidilfitri. maaf zahir & batin.
tak kira, puase ke tk.
kita tk pilih kasih. =))







till den.







*note to self: revamp pg & update info details. uurrgghh.
so last year.

21 January, 2008

i noe dis entry has been long overdued. aint got much to blog nowadays.
got me thinking bout something thou few wks ago.

seriously. how many of u mind dating a younger guy?
(dis only applies to females btw...)

wen i was younger, i used to think dat dating older guys were cool. especially those who are years above u. during my sec sch days, i had a galfren who dated a guy younger den her. she was in sec3, n him in sec2. n wenever dey are together, my mind is screaming, "OMG. HE'S WEARING SHORTS XIA.............................".

like seriously. thou i never mentioned it out loud (who am i to judge rite.....)

but those days, dating older guys were a 'thing' for us gals. ok. same age still considered ok la.
but younger??

no way.

now dat im older, i've come to realise dat age dun reali matter. S-E-R-I-O-U-S-L-Y.

AND dis is SO NOT becoz im wif one rite now, but becoz now, i fil dat chemistry between both parties is even more important den anything else.

not to mention dat most older guys dun act their age and are juz egoistic bastards, loving e control dey haf over us younger weaklings.

from experience, being engaged to an older guy has taught me a very desirable lesson i will never forget. even thou he was older den me, and "supposedly" to be more matured, sadly he wasnt at all. in fact, my greatest disappointment was him. sometimes i fil like im his toy puppet which he controls within his powers. urgh.

and amidst e breakup of my engagement, i met someone new. someone younger den me by 7mths. but he dun look younger; nor does he behave like a 12-yr-old kid. in fact, he was quite matured in his thinking, even prepared in taking our relationship to greater levels.

a mth plus if us being together, he introduced me to his family. and i was warmly welcomed to be part of dem. (most guys wuld take half to a year, and even den still tries to put off meeting e family....)

amazed?


dun be.

younger guys has been proven to be even more sensitive to female's feelings and needs. thou sometimes it felt like u're leading e relationship, it may not always be a bad thing.

in fact, dun we all love e power we haf over our guys? =)

knowing irul has thot me dat being wif younger guys dun necessarily mean a bad thing. e chemistry dat we haf is amazing; something not many people haf. n even thou we're apart for dis period of time, juz by corresponding thru letters is enuf to noe how we truly feel about each other.

based on other experiences too, i've been out wif some other younger guys in e past. n yes, dey haf proven to be even more caring and sensitive den most older guys are.


so e next time wen a younger guy approaches u, dun diss him for his age. yet. instead, find dat chemistry between u, n work from der.

BUT. if he's still acting like his age plus being super moronic, den big NO-NO. and if he looks his age (which wuld make him look younger den u) den forget it. u wuld end up looking like e older sister and a younger brother out on a shopping trip.

eeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwww.

e cons thou, i might add is dat dey are not really ready for a committed relationship yet. serious issues-talks dun work wif dem. dey juz simply dun bother. dey are exactly wat u nid wen e time comes for u to fil young all over again. juz fun n games all day. stress-free. it gets frustrating at times but coz dey are 'younger', dis tings dun matter till years later.


and unfortunately, we gals mature faster (or so dey say), so we tend to get all worked up and motherly over commitment issues once in awhile.

believe me. 8 out of 10 gals are e ones asking their guys wen culd dey finally tie e knot or wer is e relationship going.


mind u. i said 8 out of 10, so 2 are still witholding their dignity as females.



oh well. we cant help it; we're females! we're inborn wif dis irritating but useful traits ey...we plan wat our future holds, while guys go ahead wif wat dey tink is best at e mo...n use their brains later.



bummer. i noe.



someone told me before dat wen u're looking for a life partner, make sure he's 7 yrs older den u. coz dat seems to be e right wavelength for our overdeveloped-self n their slowly- making-it maturity levels.



hmph.



somehow, im beginning to realize this theory is crap. coz ive seen it wif my own eyes hw bullshitty older guys truly are. besides, dey look far too old for e gal, making dem look like a "sugar daddy" kinda relationship.

urggh. not exactly a match made in heaven rite??



haix. still.

at e end of e day, it's still e chemistry dat i b searching for.

n yesh truly...dat chemistry has kept us going strong thruout e storms which came crashing upon our helpless souls... yet together, we're holding on and looking forward to e day e sun will shine brightly upon us once again...




pray for us aites? =p


19 December, 2007

i hereby declare dat i'm OFFICIALLY bored.

1. what is the one birthday present that you would really like to have?
-my beby boy to come home in feb..dat was my bday wish dis yr..

2. are you happy with the person that you are currently attached to now?
-i wuld be even happier if he was here wif me... ='(

3. do you have mixed feelings everytime?
-yar. always.

4. do you think you'll die young?
-life n death is in HIS hands.

5: what do you think about most?
-will he be able to come home in feb..

6. would you be happier with a sensitive guy or a loud guy?
-lil bit of both. cannot be too sensitive or too loud.

7 . do you expect your BF to give you red roses on Valentines' Day?
-nahh. juz be wif me on dat day is enuf.

8 . wentworth miller or brendon urie?
-absolutely no idea.

9. audrey kitching or tyra banks?
-banks.

10 . do you make friends easier with girls or guys?
-dun judge me k. but i think guys.

11. do you easily fall for sweet talks from guys?
-noway!

12. why do you think guys cheat alot?
-coz dey wanna be official man whores.

13. by what age do you think you'll get married?
-hopefully dis 080808 will happen for us..insyAllah

14. is there any particular guy that you are interested in but are shy in making the first move?
-nahh.

15. any feelings for your ex?
-dat man whore? juz pure hatred.