fairytale

im now so in love wif dis song. juz watchin e video clip gifs u some ideas what its all about. from wat i heard its from a movie. not sure wat thou. aniwaes.its 'Fairytale' in english. basically dis is wat e song says:

I have forgotten how long I have not listen to you
Telling me your favourite story
I have been thinking for a long time
I have started lying
Have I done something wrong?

* You were crying when you told me
Fairy tales are meant for cheating people
I could not be your prince charming
Maybe you could not understand
From the moment you said you love me
The stars in my sky became bright

# I am willing to (want to) (will) become the angel that you love in fairy tale
Spreading out my hands to be wings to protect you
You must believe that we will be like in fairy tale
Where the ending is happiness

Together writing our ending

aint dat swit? i luv e song from e video clip. e piano part is beautiful. n e closing werby e gal says sumthin, it means dat 'e whole world can ignore me but not u'.

trying to learn e song now. so dat at werk can sing. show off lah sikit. hehe.

aniwaes. its either i zip ma mouth. or shut ma eyes. or dunch drink at werk. ive got blardy craving for hot stuffs! cooked in soups. n no. im not pregnant. thank u veri much. nid a solution to dis before i balloon up. den all ma hard work would be wasted. im currently weighing 50kg. which also means ive put on 5 extra kilos. (aaaarrrrgggggghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!) halamak. time-time gini kalau si didi ader kan bagus. buat aku stress sikit ker. pikiran ker. aper2 lah. its e drinkin man. dehydratin me. makin me hungry. reali nid to haf sm self-control before i lose all ma willpower.

gona pay ma hp bill later. den going to e doc to get ma medication. halamak. duit lagik. seems like im spendin dem faster den im earnin. takder makner!! wat to do. dis is life. hope i get e job at shangrilla as casual labour soon. at least i'll be busy all day earnin money rather than feedin e hole wif food n lettin e fats multiply. god. now. im so much bigger than ma sis. she's lost a whole lotta weight. (nie sumer biaser. boipren nyer hal jgak.) n kipin it off. thou i wonder how she does it. da mkn takper. tknk berak lak tu. pedup aku. simpan taik lak dlm bdn. (perut da tak muat kalau sumer nak ilek dlm.)

yesterday. spent e nite wif irul. (sori nad. wen u called i wanted to tell u juz dat ive got no strength to. sleepin oreadi.) i was der by 3am. he came ard 4.30am. aper lagik. lepak ah. tunggu dia cam durian tak jatuh. im afraid dat we mite be facing sum problems. or dat im superb-ly highly sensitive. either way. im losin grip on e relationship. (yikesss!!) maybe wat nad says is true. i mite be better off without a boifren. fuck. its written in e lines on e palms rite? i'll be an old maid by e tym i get married. stress sakk.

its lyk he kips on sayin he luvs me blah blah blah. kinda swit but suspicious as well. everytime he spents e nite wif me, he wuld switch off his hp. dunch noe y. spotted dis 2-3 times oreadi but dunch wana kick up a fuss. yet. n wen he sleeps. he's not like didi who wuld hold me thru e nite. he's more lyk on his own. puas ati takyah tdo ngn aku. hamlao. n wen its tym to get up. juz so. goddamn. blardy. difficult. ngigao lain. halamak. usually dis is wat happens. i'd wake him up. tell him im gona shower. after im ready. wake him up again. n he wuld groggily say to me,'b u dah mandi? asl tak kejut?' halamak. mcm tape recorder sakk deknie. malas aku nak jawab. wen he's half asleep. he doesnt remember wat he said or does. bingit jek. da lah. dats e last nite im ever spendin wif him again. (nampak gaya mcm nak kena pai tao jek?!?)

im confused. dunch reali noe wat im after. fickle minded. (even he said so.)
help? anyone?

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