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30 August, 2006
hey beautiful people. im home now. went out for e miting juz now. final warning to ma tardiness. haix. next term onwards dis kids gona get e punctual-est teacher dey ever met. hehe. blame it on me for not being able to wake up on time. but. now all dat is said n done. solution: nid to change ma attitude.
next. ma love life. (or lack of it.) dd's side still hasnt come over. wonder wat's delaying dem. but aniwaes. eventually ive come to a point werby i culd live wif dis fact. e fact dat he left.well. yeah. e wounds r der wich wuld lead to scars. plus point is, e gal he is wif is a whore at geylang who apparently earns lyk 40bux per sex. i proudly declare dat thou im werking as a hostess, im still in a high-class place wereby i dun even haf to sell myself. juz sit ard, drink, smoke n practise singing, i culd get lyk 100bux wif no efforts at all. if only i was sexually-hyperactive i culd earn loads more. hakz. wer does dis all gets to? oh yah. so he's wif her becoz of money dat she has, not love. more lyk greed. n dis stupid bitch thinks he loves her n showers him wif money. get it? yar. so he can take all her money if he wants too, but he'll be leaving mine alone. u see? (thank god i worked dat out!) i still am hurting n trying to swallow all dis fact thou. e fact dat he left love for money. n i noe he still loves me. he said so to abg ijan...n he msgd me yesterday asking me how i was n everything. thou he msgd me to get a better guy than him. (as if i nided him to tell me dat!) he also said he's became gay. to wich i answered, more lyk a pimp. (coz pimps make money too u noe.) n i noe. deep, deep down inside his stony hart, der's a place for me. maybe he's realized dat he hurt me too much n therefore takes dis step in leaving me.
not noeing how much its hurting me now. but. better now den later rite. for now. im juz dreading e festive season coming. puasa...raya....ma bday...new year...vday...still wishing i could sleep thru it all n wake up in march 2007. (telan obat tdo bnyk2!!) too much memories shared between us.
now all i nid to do is to stay low. not ever letting him catch me wif sum other guy so dat he culd prove dat i was in e wrong. but sumhow, irul doesnt seem to undestand dis concept. kips on saying dat me n dd are over so y shuld we even wori. (nie lah arab celop bodoh tak paham adat resam bangsa melayu.) haix. so strong-headed. we've been arguing so much dat its starting to irritate me. we argued everyday. tantrums. attitudes. no different from e last phase i've been thru. now he's urging me to marry him by end of next year. n so does hanz. hanz's a guy i met at my werkplc. n he fell in love wif me. we knew each other way before dis becoz his group used to bring ma sis out. yes. ma sis. e beauty. so aniwaes. while he as wif ma sis. me n him nvr reali get to noe each other. jus simple his n byes. n 3 way calls. dats all. but now.
actuali all dis is kinda getting sumwat boring. yesh, i nided ma self-confidence back, but not to e extend of people asking me to marry dem. i mean, hel-lo. i juz went thru a broken engagement. plus i dun even noe u dat well.
haix. gotta learn to push dis people down. tactfully thou. wuldnt want dem to disappear entirely rite? hehe.
now. jobs. yesh. im still werking as a part time teacher, nite time GRO, but i nid a really full-on permanent job wereby i get a stable income. apparently. ders none at e mo. i've been looking mind u. so any lobangs. do let me noe.
i tink dats about it in ma lyf rite now. oh. n apart from e fact dat im desperately - i repeat- desperately trying to lose weight. yesh. ive put on some. n i hate e fact dat ma tummy's forever grumbling coz it wuld den take over ma mind n mouth to be fed. see? dats y i nid a permanent job to kip me bz n away from foods.
felt lyk events of e past few weeks had been lyk ages ago. but fact is it juz happened. i tink im on autopilot. lyf zips by wen u dun realize it.
next. ma love life. (or lack of it.) dd's side still hasnt come over. wonder wat's delaying dem. but aniwaes. eventually ive come to a point werby i culd live wif dis fact. e fact dat he left.well. yeah. e wounds r der wich wuld lead to scars. plus point is, e gal he is wif is a whore at geylang who apparently earns lyk 40bux per sex. i proudly declare dat thou im werking as a hostess, im still in a high-class place wereby i dun even haf to sell myself. juz sit ard, drink, smoke n practise singing, i culd get lyk 100bux wif no efforts at all. if only i was sexually-hyperactive i culd earn loads more. hakz. wer does dis all gets to? oh yah. so he's wif her becoz of money dat she has, not love. more lyk greed. n dis stupid bitch thinks he loves her n showers him wif money. get it? yar. so he can take all her money if he wants too, but he'll be leaving mine alone. u see? (thank god i worked dat out!) i still am hurting n trying to swallow all dis fact thou. e fact dat he left love for money. n i noe he still loves me. he said so to abg ijan...n he msgd me yesterday asking me how i was n everything. thou he msgd me to get a better guy than him. (as if i nided him to tell me dat!) he also said he's became gay. to wich i answered, more lyk a pimp. (coz pimps make money too u noe.) n i noe. deep, deep down inside his stony hart, der's a place for me. maybe he's realized dat he hurt me too much n therefore takes dis step in leaving me.
not noeing how much its hurting me now. but. better now den later rite. for now. im juz dreading e festive season coming. puasa...raya....ma bday...new year...vday...still wishing i could sleep thru it all n wake up in march 2007. (telan obat tdo bnyk2!!) too much memories shared between us.
now all i nid to do is to stay low. not ever letting him catch me wif sum other guy so dat he culd prove dat i was in e wrong. but sumhow, irul doesnt seem to undestand dis concept. kips on saying dat me n dd are over so y shuld we even wori. (nie lah arab celop bodoh tak paham adat resam bangsa melayu.) haix. so strong-headed. we've been arguing so much dat its starting to irritate me. we argued everyday. tantrums. attitudes. no different from e last phase i've been thru. now he's urging me to marry him by end of next year. n so does hanz. hanz's a guy i met at my werkplc. n he fell in love wif me. we knew each other way before dis becoz his group used to bring ma sis out. yes. ma sis. e beauty. so aniwaes. while he as wif ma sis. me n him nvr reali get to noe each other. jus simple his n byes. n 3 way calls. dats all. but now.
actuali all dis is kinda getting sumwat boring. yesh, i nided ma self-confidence back, but not to e extend of people asking me to marry dem. i mean, hel-lo. i juz went thru a broken engagement. plus i dun even noe u dat well.
haix. gotta learn to push dis people down. tactfully thou. wuldnt want dem to disappear entirely rite? hehe.
now. jobs. yesh. im still werking as a part time teacher, nite time GRO, but i nid a really full-on permanent job wereby i get a stable income. apparently. ders none at e mo. i've been looking mind u. so any lobangs. do let me noe.
i tink dats about it in ma lyf rite now. oh. n apart from e fact dat im desperately - i repeat- desperately trying to lose weight. yesh. ive put on some. n i hate e fact dat ma tummy's forever grumbling coz it wuld den take over ma mind n mouth to be fed. see? dats y i nid a permanent job to kip me bz n away from foods.
felt lyk events of e past few weeks had been lyk ages ago. but fact is it juz happened. i tink im on autopilot. lyf zips by wen u dun realize it.