been away for dis past 3 nites. went to kl e 1st nite. den spent 2 more nites at chalet. haix. lama2 kena halau jugak aku dari umah nie. dey r mad at me coz me n dd sill havent settle things. latest update: he n me are thru.he's leaving to go thai for 18mths n decided to leave me. so i gez dats e end of us. he said he's afraid to cm bk for fear dat i might hurt him again. i noe ive hurt him wen he wanted me; yet now wen he's leaving i wan him back. im in a dilemma as to wat i reali want. i want my freedom; n i want him too thou i noe dis things dun mix. at tymes i fil lyk i reali wana cm bk to him n start everything afresh. yet sumtymes, remembering wat he did hurts me so much dat i juz wana rebel against him. i dunch nie why im facing dis. it hurts me so much wen he said we're thru. i always thot dat 1 day we'll get back together. gez i was wrong.


now im left wif 3 more weeks before my surgery. he said he wun be ard. i gez as much as i want him to be ard,its better dat he's not so dat maybe i culd mend my broken hart at e same tym too.


i've wished for a better life for me n a miracle to happen but dats unlikely to be now coz all my dreams had been shattered.


will be pretty bz next week. got classes at ngee ann for 3 mornings. uuuuurrrrggggghh. tho i love my job, im not exactly a veri morning person.

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