always.

31 May, 2006

did i mention dat i also watched the prince & me?

yeah.watched dat too.now downloading the prince & me 2.

now watching american pie the weddding.

hehekz.

cooked for mum.again.

experimented wif frying e chicken.

tips for u guys.

rempah kunyit.standard.

sambal paste.sugar.pinch of salt.

if u want swit.more sugar.

if not keep it at 1 spoon.

damn nice.oh.n if wen u fry it & it gets black.

dunch worry.its lyk dat.but if u dunch want people to be turned off.

den let it out once it turns brown.

haixx.

bout e car.thank god daddy aint mad at me.

but it wuld be a long tym b4 i sit behind e wheels again.

good actuali.hate it wen people call me up juz asking for a ride.

taking advantage of me.

wat dey didnt understand is dat.it aint ma car.

cant always be driving it.

& ma parens dunch seem to understand dat

sumtimes i wana drive it on ma own.

but hey.got into an accident didnt i.

sheeesh.lay off.

mum said im daddy's pet.

coz daddy didnt scold me.

hehe.i noe rite.

thy lil' bastard.dunch noe wer.

called him since morning but didnt pick up.

den called him again.he's off.

darn.dunch believe it if he's saying he's bz at work.

watever.

takin advantage of e freedom i gave.

look at wat i'll do wif e freedom i get.

30 May, 2006

beginning e movie marathon again.

yesterday wif nana.

hehe.

watched wat a gal wants.

cheaper by the dozen.cheaper by the dozen 2.

went to geylang to get daddy's boss's mum in law a shawl.

then went to e fish farm.

got 12 lil'fishes.yipee!

finally.

but dis a.m. one died.again.

juz dunch get it.

wat e hell dese fishes wants.

food.environment.clean water.air.everything.

& god e food.

been feeding dem so much.

dey are like forever hungry!

hahakz.

but i like 2 of dem.

red tails.light blue & yellow stripes on e bodies.

beautiful.

gonna get more of dose.

hehe.

den sent nana home.on ma own.

had a lil' accident wif e car.

but god was i in denial.

denied ma way thru wen mum asked.

hehe.i noe rite.wat a bitch.

but hey.dis juz pushing me to get ma own car.

n im so gonna get it soon.

aniwaes.today reali had nothing to do.

been home.all day long.

cooked for mum.quite fun actuali.

never known for ma cooking.

coz aint doing e eating.

thy lil' bastard aint coming home.

staying in camp.

had loadsa stuff to do coz of e east timor riot.

got psychoed by his upper to go der.

but u noe.being e coward he is.nahh.

well.den he said dat maybe we mite be going to kl afterall.

but its juz so last min.im not even prepared for it.

dunch tink im going aniwaes.

dunch fil lyk it.

im sooooooo bored.

no frenz.no boifren,no nothing.

aint got sumthing to fil ma tym 'cept for looking at thy lil' fishes.

oh.& doing manicures.smoking.wat else is der for me to do ard here?

28 May, 2006

went to mustafa centre in e pm.
drove dad n mum down.
actuali me n mum wnated to go to the fish farm.
get sum fishes for ma fish tank.
werby e fishes are decreasing

at an alarming rate.
hehe.dunch noe y.

but den daddy spoilt our plans.
niwaes.bought hair products.perfume.pants.
facial scrub for thy lil bastard.
whole lotta stuff out der.
now i noe why my sis lurves going der.
'cept.i tink e people der aint got eyes.
dey juz bump into u as n wen dey like it.
kinda irritating to walk & shop for stuff.
den.went to boon keng.
coz daddy's hungry.
met wanie & family.*hey.*
den drove back home.
almost didnt make it.
daddy was lyk screaming at me to exit.
hehe.cant blame me.
i aint noe e roads yet.
den he was lyk telling me.
mum oso was lyk dat.
she even exited at ang mo kio.
& didnt noe how to get out.
prob wif ma dad is.
he wants everyone to be an expert in all dis.
lyk him.as he started driving way before he earned his license.
show off much.
niwaes.reached home.
decided to do a lil' prodding.
gez wat i found......

piix of e past.

dis mat rep here is bom.
aint kidding u.
dats wat people call him.
met him while i was working at boat quay's

mambo no.5.
nana.u remember him rite.
wen i first met him.
he was dis reali.reali.shy guy.
who wanted my number.
which i gave after a few nites.
den he called me after werk.
den dats it.togetherness.
didnt last thou.
all he cared about was sex.
which was soooooo annoying.
i was 17 for god's sake.

& thank god i didnt do it.

he went MIA.

den 1 day i was out wif ma another new guy.

met his fren.who said.

she's sori bout wat happened between us.

& dat it sux dat he's going after his ex-gal.

hurrh.no wonder.using me as a sub.

bastard.burrt.u noe wat.he kinda looked lyk ma another ex-guy.

khairul anam.anotha bastard.

whose pix was thrown into e bin.

wif utmost respect.amen.

life's full of ups & downs while ure growing up.

dis one.fad.a prob guy.

causing chaos here & der.

unfinished or not.

dunch care animore.

swit talk muthafarker.

wat u tink us sisters for.

till wen u gonna kip dis up.

ure 22 dis yr ma boy.

its tym to grow up.

hafiz.a real looker.

good looks.sexy voice.had it all.

'cept dat he talks too much bout himself.

god.he can go on & on bout himself.

& not caring if ure listening or not.

always manage to fell asleep.

while waiting for him to finish his stories.

hehe.

involved wif him in sec sch.

more lyk a love triangle.

had probs wif his gal.

we talked.n crushed.

met him every nite.

sumtimes even 2-3am.on sch nites.

ya i noe rite.as if we aint miting tomorrow.

den his gal found out.confronted me.

so i said.if ure so good he wun be running to me.

haiix.wat a slut i was.

dis pix taken on grad nite.for memories he says.

hasnt seen him since den.

dese 2 are e weirdest.cutest.couple.

ive ever befriended.

total opposites.as u can see.

height.color.

but both.cock-up.

gal from gal's home.guy tattoos armload.

always had fun wenever dey are around.

but den we kinda lost contact.

wen i broke up wif one of ma ex who was e guy's fren.

last i heard.dis two got married.

now wif kids.

all e best to dem.

besides dese i found otha stuffs lyk letters

& cards i received over e past few years.

2 letters from an ex of mine.

farniie guy.he's lyk 2 yrs older.

but still writes letters to express himself.

hehe.

last i heard he's in jail now serving 5yrs.

good luck.

den bday cards from ma parents.

from nana & ahmad.

wen dey were together.

still am wearing e bday ring u guys gave me.

from ma cuzzins.

whom used to be so.so.damn close.

but den our parents fall out.

& things were never e same again.

letters from ma sis.

wen i was in hospital.

letters from my bestfren.sikin.

whom now has changed so drastically.

i dunch even recognize her animore.

i remembered once on ma bday.

she gave me a bday card in school.

& later at nite.sent a bday cake at home.

she's not e person i knew animore.

sadness much.

burrt.in dat box is wer ma memories remain.

its wer everything is locked up inside.

without anione tampering wif.

even if one day.if i were to lose ma mind.

dis box would be my guidance.

ma childhood.ma life.

27 May, 2006

its 2 am.
cant sleep.
watching reruns of desperate housewives.
(julez its on ch5 on fri nites.hekz.)
also occupying my time helping wanie.
wif her blog.
looking at her pix wif sahar.
so swit.
made me mish my lil'bastard.
hekz.
since tuesday.
we havent seen each other.
east timor riots.
being e civil servant he is.
or else govt dog.
whichever ure comfortable with.
hes home so late everyday.
now we gotta cancel our plans to go kl.
next thurs.
he cant take off.
haixx.
getting fatter by e day.
nothing to do.
'cept munching.
willpower gone wen ure bored much.

furthermore.e aunty's come visit.

cramps.
hekz.
im mommies daughter now.
always home.
watched tv wif her.
cooked.chilled.
shes making me fat.
haiixx.
aniwaes.
stuff to intro u guys.
new za true white powder.

better than e normal one.
for dose longing fairer skin.
tip thou.nvr buy foundation one tone lighter.
always get it one tone darker.
also.za true white

metavoltage exfoliating cream.

its cheap.13 bucks.
but true to its words.
exfoliates dirt & unclog ur pores.
ok.ok.
im a product victim.
but who cares.
indulging myself to dese stuff once in awhile is ok.
hey.i used to be shoes addict.
wuld get a pair every wk.
wonder wer all ma shoes went to.
hurrh.
burrt.do gif dese products a shot.

25 May, 2006

remember dem?

e twin wonder.

beautiful aint dem.in their younger days.

a year younger i tink.

burrt.

dey are multi-billionaires.

i prefer ashley.

she's got a softer face.

MK's got a 'homeless' & 'hollow' face.

dis wat happens wen u get too rich.

aint got a cause for e millions ey.

she's ma inspiration.

aneroxic.

or else drug abuse.

taking coccaine & spoiling her appetite.

im more to e aneroxic part.

its a wonder how dese people get their days done.

without eating.

or else minimal food.

e price for beauty.

is being thin really e 'perfect' figure?

is dis how u nid to be to get society to accept u?

i told ma mum i wana be like her.

all skins & bones.

juz to see how my bone structure reali is.

all i can see rite now is juz my rib cage.

n hip bones.

which are reali huge.

i wan more.

i wan skinny arms.

skinny thighs.

e problem here is.

wen i eat.

all e food doesnt come out.

i haf prob digesting dem in ma tummy.

so u see.i dun nid e toilet dat much.

all e foods get stuck in ma body parts.

& make me fat.

next target.

im gonna be 45kg.

took me 5 days to lose 5kg.

so to be 45kg.

i will nid another 5 days.

(i always put extra for some space.)

hekz.

gotta haf stronger will power.

wer are all dose people who disses me.

juz wen i nid u now.

haixx.

24 May, 2006

nothing much dis few days.in fact.

been on a movie marathon.

watched cheaper by the dozen.

barbie mermaidia.l

il'mermaid part 2.

waiting for clueless.juz married.

passport to paris.cheaper by the dozen 2.

hahakx.bored u see.

reali aint got sumthing to do.

e hse is clean.everyday.

resemblance much?
tom welling.taken from cheaper by the dozen.

looks like ma cuzzin.god i mish him.

said wanted to bring me out(again).but didnt.

aaarrrgghh.

.................................................................................................

went to his (u-noe-who) plc on sun & mon.slept der.

got scolding.as usual.but hey.u noe wat.

i decided not to stay over animore.

its getting boring.old.

fils lyk he's taking over my life.

wun allow me to go home.sleep wif him.

morning sends me back.kinda bullshit ya noe.

so yesterday.i met him at bukit batok.

his camp got an activity going on.

i took e blardy train down.

had to carry my helmet lyk im riding.

lyk a blardy fool.

so after dat we walked around west mall a lil'bit.

nothing much.den we left bout 7 plus.

long way home.traffic jam here n der.

den i said i wanted to go home.he got mad.

wanted me to go his hse awhile.watch some tv.

den he will send me back.

(fact is to 'pretend' to sleep so dat i cnt bother him.)

not dat i cant leave & go back.

but if i did dat he wuld say i made his hse lyk a hotel & he warned me bout doing such things.

so instead of taking e risk.i requested to be sent home.he did eventually.but he dropped me off nearby my home bus stop and left.blardy hell.but wat e hell.

im glad to be home.
...................

dad's bosses are having lunch at ma place.

dey are so farniie.everything is

'great'.'wow'.'çool'.

and definitely more of 'ooh's and 'aaaah's.

as usual.the parents.

forever praising e younger one.

"she can bake brownies." "she's smart."

blah.blah.blah.wen it comes to me.

mum: "ooh.she's blaming me coz i married her father.and caused all dat in her face."

ooh.so im e ugly & resentful sister lah nie?

ok fine.be dat way.im not gonnna care

wat u think & say animore.

cause all dis shit juz gona break me down.

& i refuse to.

dis goes to everyone out der

who's putting me down too.

a big thank you.

for all dis dissing wuld juz make me stronger.

for all of u who said i was fat.i made it.

i weigh 48kg now.

for dose who predicted me to be an

unwed mother with no education.

haha.sori to disappoint.

im an educated bitch.

but ey.dun stop all dose dissing.

juz carry on as u always do.

plain jealousy.

oh.n to him.

whom hurt me.

makin me bleed.

im stronger now.

i dunch give a damn.

21 May, 2006

dese wkend has been a blur.

u wuld haf thot dat i wuld

haf gone out n mit him.

burrt no.

he insist on having a fight wif me.

im getting sick of dis.

i msgd him yesterday dat if

he wana go fark sum otha bitches or wat

go ahead n leave me alone.

dis am he msgd me n asked

if i wana go escort wif him.

i noe rite.

such an arsehole.

he reali tinks im gona be up n ready

juz bcoz he said so.

no farkiing way.

enuf is enuf.

i tolerated ya shit.

ya abuse.

ya rants.

ya two-timing me.

enuf is enuf.

qouted from wanie.

"one more mistake.

game over."

i gez dis e cue.

waited for ma cuzzin to pik me up yesterday.

but seems he had sum other plans.

said wana go out today.

burrt has still not call me.

haixx.

tink he's got a chick on his back?

i hope not.

i nid him now.

19 May, 2006

rewind to e past.

he called me.

said was still pissed off wif me.

over our break up.

dat was in 2003.

hhuuurrrhh.

weird hurh.

i noe. i noe.

it was ma fault.

but how was i to noe.

it will create dis big an impact on him.

let u in on e story.

i was working in dis pub.

den his fren met me der.

brought him, his anotha fren

n his cuzzin down to mit me.

intro me as his gf.

but i was interested in his another fren.

confused?

lets gif dem names.

so 'a' was e one who saw me 1st.

brought 'b', 'c' n 'd' down to intro me as his gf.

'b 'n 'c' are cuzzins.

but i was interested in 'd'.

den 'b' n 'd' got into an accident.

which took 'd' life away.

'b' called me n asked if i knew.

i went down to e hospy

n visited him.

n dats how we got together.

between e visits at e hospy

n his hse.

sparks flew between me n 'c'.

so i cheated on 'b'.

went out wif 'c' n stuff.

but 'c' has a gf.

so im quite greedy actuali.

i wan ma cake n eat it too.

so i kept 'b' but went wif 'c'.

kinda farniie.

considering dey were cuzzins n all.

coz if all of us met.

me n 'c' gotta pretend we dunno each other.

but wenever 'b' kisses me or sumthing

'c' would text me

all kinda shit.

jealous much.

den 'b' found out.

thru e masgs dat i kept.

dumb of me.

i noe rite.

so he confronted us.

n yep.

no use crying over split milk.

but i did say to 'b' dat if he's willing

den we'll start over.

he said ok.

but i found out he was

cheating on me wif my sis.

cant blame him.

revenge is swit.

so since he was wif ma sis.

i got on wif life.

n got together wif 'a'.

big roller coaster ride.

sux actuali.

coz wen we go clubbing.

i'd avoid dem like a plague.

but dey are still 'a' frenz.

awkward much.

so now 'b' was like sayig

why i had to go do all dat.

he treasures me.

but i was too wilful to handle.

i told him.

its his fault.

coz even wen he found out.

he didnt even scold me.

or scream at me.

he juz took it all in his stride.

and prepared for revenge.

so in all.

he lost me for e battle he won.

n now.

he wana be selfish.

didnt want me to be anyone else's.

but he noes.

im engaged.

n he's being forced to engage too.

i fil bad dat all dis has to happen.

but he says its karma.

n ya.

i believed dat.

coz i left him who treasured me.

n went for sumone who doesnt even

noe how to appreciate me.

karma.

yep.

18 May, 2006

i mish him.

who?

ma cuzzin.

gorgeous aint him.

i noe.

he's servin e country now.

at tekong.

so.

he's botak lah.

but gorgeous all e same.

used to call me up wen he's out.

pick him up from e interchange.

drive him home.

supper.

burrt.

ever since i gave him my fren's number.

he didnt call me.

much less msg me.

haixx.

mish him.

loads.

17 May, 2006

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..dedicated to my beshiie.nana.who cant find dis lyric.hehe.

5 am.wed.yeayness.2 more days alone.hekz.

he's coming out dis fri.mish him much.
still talking to ma beshfwen

on e phone while writing dis.

yep.she's back from holiday.

being even more blonder.

hekz.thanx for sparing me time today.

met her at clarke quay.

as usual she's late.

went for interview at hooters.

get dis.hooters gals are high class hostess.

dey wear shorts rite up to e ass.hehe.

but e pay is goddamn good.too bad no tattoos thou.

imagine ma shawtie swithart wearing dat.

hakz.

nemind.she's got e boobs for it.

den we went to boat quay's syah alam for a bite.

on e way to e MRT.

we got lost.

well.

wat to do.

americanx.

hehe.

16 May, 2006

.:DIA:.

finally.dey came to their senses.happy ending.

justice is done.dun get cheated.

dis happens onli in dramas.

e never-ending-ever-so-dramatic drama

serial finally ended today.

even at e veri last moment.

e directors managed to wrench our hartx.

soap opera.hakz.purposely took dese pix.

for ya viewing pleasures.hehe.

well.nothing on after dis monday.

pointless to stay home.

but then again.wer wuld i be.

gez wat.dat blardy freelance job.stopped me today.

yep.step on ma head wen i'm drowning.

aaarrrgggggghhhhhhhhh.

i dunno wat went wrong.

he juz asked me down n said he wana

change designer.fuck rite.

after all dat i've done.

paying me peanuts for my hardwork.

advice: dun ever work for a jap.

haixx.

juelz.will blanja u.

but till i get a proper job aites.

a lil'setback doesnt mean its e end.

juz making u work harder towards ur goal.

ok.dis is to assure myself.

i nid a job.peepz.a favour.

any job openings.do call me.n yep.

ma hp's on again.

beep me.

15 May, 2006

haha.anak toyol.

5.30 in the am now.juz got home from his house.he'll be away for dis 5 days.again.offered me sum pocket money.but sumhow.i juz cant take it.fils lyk i owe sumone money.i noe rite.serves me rite.now i gotta scrape thru e week wif 4 bucks to my name.i can make it.i can make it.

i tink i can.

mother's day.went out for lunch wif mum,auntie n grandma.ladies day out.gave ma mum a flower brooch from chomel.classness.nite went for dinner at his great grandma's place.gave his mum same brooch in different color.wasnt my idea.his.burrt.kinda cute if one day dey were to wear it at e same time.

ok.get serious.i got 5 days to lose 2.5kg.yep i put on weight.lyk juelz said its e curse of staying home.stay home.bored.put on weight.actuali wuld be quite easy coz wun be miting him.he's forever making me eat.burrt.he's watching his weight.idiotic.i noe rite.vainpot.uuurrrgghh.hopefully i can lose more than dat.ok.new target.3kg.if i can do dis den

i tink i can go for more.

as if!

wish me luck 'kays.

13 May, 2006

another good morning

cant sleep.been up since 4am.watched tv a lil'.got in n out of room a few times.too bored.was looking for my bronzer which i lost 2 mths bk.damn.bought it at bodyshop.which i recommend for dat sweaty.flushed.look.beautiful.but its lost.damn-ness.one costs S$39.90.damn.damn.
damness.used it a few times only.great for clubbing.natural flushed look.uuuurrrgggghhhh.

its 7am now.fil lyk taking a bath.but i will only be goin out at noon.will be sweating by then.

hoping to get back to dreamland soon.

smokin'e tym away.chillin'on ma own.mishing ma peepz.reali.mish u people.mish e fun.laughters.jokes in class.n outside of coz.haix.rewind.i nid time to rewind.will do it all over again.

better dis time.hekz.

people on ma mind.

>>julez.as always.y aint u in e whole nite?oh yah.sentosa.how was it?>>lynn.wondering e great change in her.humbleness n modestness aside.shes a huge braggie now.(stating a fact dearie.)wish u were e gal i knew n met before in 3rd yr.come back!leave ma fren u monster!>>syafiq.hopefully the satay biz takes off ya.hakz.>>tik.god.been wif her for everyday of my life since i was 13.a wonder if i didnt mish her.>>wanie n e menjengz.mish u peepz alrite.craziness ends once dance sessions were over.dose were e days ey.>>nana.i noe.i noe.ure in kl.culdnt picked a better tym ey babe.left me alone in spore.hhmmpph!hekz.hope u enjoyed yaself.cnt wait for u to cm bk n talk all nite long on e phone.>>pizza peepz.eddie.shaz.idah.
bibah.sub.hilmi.gosh.u guys muz b goddamn bz.never got e chance to mit u peepz at tmph nimore.mish werking days.but given a choice.n am doing it now.i wun werk der nimore.no life.but i mish u guys.pits.clubbing.drunk.hekz.
>>adec.u dead yet babe.went to MOS but culdnt get u.called ya but terminated.same fate.same fate.>>my lil'sisters.dira n nico.ok.ok.i get to see my sis if i wanted to.but her damn bf always home.inconvinient ya noe.mish bitchin ard.dira.gone wif e bf.same fate.same fate.sisters.haixx.gotta hate n lurp dem.all at e same time.emo stress.

i didnt put dis down coz im sleepy.juz dat i cant sleep n suddenly wishing u all were ard.friendship means more to me than diamonds thou dey are a gal's bestfren.but for wat?aint happy if ya all alone.

aaaaarrrrrrgggghhhhhh.wishing for a REWIND.

12 May, 2006

long vesak day

yep.since e mo i woke up till now.juz reached hm.mind u.i woke up early ok.at 10am.hahakz.good news.bike found.thief not found thou.sumone spotted it at geylang lorong 18.e blardy idiot parked it at sum hotel n left.clever n expertised thief.still not content thou bike found.coz he still has e key.juz worried he mite cm n take it again.den it wuld b pointless.niwaes.went down to nee soon camp to mit his sergeant n get his bike keys n stuff.den went down to geylang to pass e keys n helmet to his dad.to bring hm e bike.den went to pasar geylang o shop awhile wip mua mother n auntie.get dis.i bought a telekong for myself.dun laugh ey.i duno wat came over me juz now.hekz.its purple in color wip purple motifs on it.quite a dahling actuali.den went down to expo to chk out e metro sale.bought lingerie.pretty nice ones i mite add.bought a bra in hot pink n one in orange.glamness.hekz.bought tangas too.one in black.one in purple.n one in red.nice.den saw this bedsheets comforter in maroon red.silk.shiok.guaranteed not to wake up once rested on it.but dey onli haf it in queen n king.not one in super single.dampness.cheapo too.juz S$89.wanted to get e queen sized one but mum said it wuld b a waste.too big.haix.still tinking bout it.still am.still wanting it.still does.den went to e wedding gallery.saw rima melati adams.she is so.damn.tall.in person.seriousness.n der was also syed azmir as one of e grooms for decorama.still cant find a reason why gals are so gaga over him.hates him.still does.still will.dun even try to chg my mind.dun trust him.juz plainly hate him.a story to tell another tym.down to jalan kayu for a drink.full.den drove down to bukit batok.sent auntie home.den from bukit batok back to my hse.phew.was sleepy on e road.ugly singaporeans bullying me.yep.becoz of e triangle i haf to put up.hate dem.as if e moment dey drive dey dun haf to wear dat thingy.nvm.few more months.mum was nagging all e way coz i was speeding at 100km/h.come on.it was onli 10km/h more than wat dey stated.hekz.but gotta treasure my license.dats y e idea of being a rally racer.speed is all u nid.auntie was lyk telling me she had to hold onto the seat.out of fear.

farniie.

thanx to all dose who haf helped to look out for e stolen bike.lets all pray dat justice wuld b done soon.thief still out in e open.beware of ur vehicles.hekz.thanx niwaes.

11 May, 2006

frustrated!

ma line's being suspended.uuuurrrggghhhh.irritatin.but good.juz tink e tings n places i can be at without e blardy phone ringing all e time.haixx.plans for e day.thot wana clear up ma room.messy.books.magazines.wat so not.but my sore eye doesnt agree.ma body juz wana lie down n rest.practically wat i've been doing since graduation.mum's home.doing wat she does best.lying down n gossipping.thank god for e private line i haf in ma room.she can hog e main line all she wants.

shuld i?shuld i not?i mean clean up.it does nid a lil' cleaning to do.well.i cant juz lie in bed all day typing ma blog.seriously.not much on e net nowadays.

oh yah.juz logged into ma sis frenster.'takin care'of it for he.suince she dun haf e means to check in.aniwaes.one of ma ex galfren added her up.get dis.dis ex of mine.is also ma sis ex.kinda complicating e tings a lil'.but e more e merrier.hurrh.a story for another tym.aniwaes.read dat gals profile.sims lyk she wrote she hates ma ex ex-galfren.can u see e irony of tings here?so y add ma sis wen she decides to hate her?humans.never noe wat dey are tinkin ey.burrtsaw ma ex pix.he's changed.more goofy than he used to be.he did once mentioned dat going out wif me he had to pertain being 'abang-abang' coz he dun wana fil left out.burrt was worst wif ma sis.hehe.serves hiim rite.haixx.if i didnt get engaged.maybe we wuld b back together now.even imagined our "married lives".heck.was a laughter.burt knowing me?i dun tink so!

seriously.wat shuld i do now?juelz is asleep is juelz.i nudged u babe in msn but u aint der.hurrh.

ok.ok.1st tings 1st.lets get dressed.yep.i bathed.but undressed.shiok.cool wind on ma naked body.weeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeee.
hehekz.den going downstairs to get me ciggies.n newspaper.or shuld i clean up 1st den go downstairs.hhmm.either way.

get dressed 1st.

gud morniing people..

its 6 in e morning.n i'm up.i'm back home.yippee!!!missed ma bed.ma room.ma privacy.ma pillows.ma parents!(lyk i said.im a veri confused person.at one tym i culd hate dem so much.but missed dem so much e next.)past few days wif him had been great but i nided to be home.ma parents had no one else to depend on but me.yep.gd old dependable me.he wun b ard for dese 3 days.b in tekong.poor him.bike lost.another.bike problematic.haixx.karma ey?as e saying goes.wat comes ard goes ard.doesnt do him good to hurt me.he ends up getting it twice.not dat im happy his bike is lost.burrt.well.u noe wat i mean.will mish him much.part of ma life.lyk a bad habit.hehe.

ma beshfwen has left for KL.idiot she.said wana mit me but didnt even call.well.hope she enjoys herself much.

gonna catch sum zzzz now.

later.

09 May, 2006

the long weekend

i aint lying.dis has by far been the longest weekend i ever experienced.on sat nite went out drinking.was drunk.woo-hoo!ahakz.went to MOS.n get dis.got in FOC!dun ask y.or how.no answer yet.aniwaes.went in at 3.30am n danced all e nite away till 5.30M.wondered how n wen we got home dat morning.all i remembered was the bike had not enuf petrol.were stuck on e highway.plentiful.but we did get hm eventually.next morning.sunday.bad hangover.vomits.n more.had a huge craving for ice milo.dunno y.dun ask.but we binged e whole day.at nite.went to my sis condo.she had a major makeover.she's got long black nails decorated wif flowers n diamonds.its fake lah.she cant kip nails.she kips on biting dem!den her long black hair is now being highlighted in browns n golds.very chic.very nice.lurp it.she cooked mee rebus.we ordered 'golden pillow'.den we had tau-huey for dessert.i skipped.sis was bored at home.hurrhh.we reached at 8 plus but left ard 11plus.which was quite early.she didnt let us go actuali.but we gotta go coz fali hadnt got the hse keys.n sis was left alone.her bf wasnt hm for e nite.pitied her actuali.missed her much.aint her fault.

den gez wat?today.he didnt go to work.bad hangover took over him.we woke up at 5 plus.went down to get dinner burt..discovered his bike GONE.yep.gone.stolen.wateva.blardy idiot.someone took his big bike away.went to report it.i reali hope e person who took it away would haf an accident n die.or sumthing.i duno.i noe he's mean n everything but he doesnt deserves his bike being taken away.bcoz e one who would reali suffer is me.its like a chain reaction.bike lost.bike owner upset.vents n takes out on gf.me.yep.he made me fil lyk i sent sumone down to steal his bike away.reali f.but i symphatise wif him.he reali doesnt deserves it.for all dat he has one for me dis weekend.dis not how its supposed to end.god is really,truly unfair.

guys do me a favour.if u see e above bike.do beep me.plate number FZ8253B.at e back.tail light.ders e name disha.

04 May, 2006

are u happy now?

taking me away.from my parents.from my life.from being me.

are u happy now?

dey aint talking to me no more.

i aint got a life no more.

are u happy now?

i hope u are.

am doing dis all for u.

yeah.me.dat lil' idiot.

still am.

are u happy now?

one day.

one day is all i nid.

n dat will be e day.

no more.