license class 2b.
to do a degree in english.
more lots money!!
lose weight!!!
modify my green baby.
be my fren.
multiply me.nadia b. nadia. wanie. nina. ain. queenbee. zee exclusive. belo chix. xiaxue the blogger. the critic. ijat snake.
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31 December, 2006
today is e last day of 2006..and yesh people slamat hari raya haji 2u guys 2...
niwaes. new year. hmph. duno wer, wif who, wat wuld i b doing to celebrate dis new beginning. i hope it wuld b sumtg new.
oh well. sumtg good oreadi happened. gez wat? i got accepted into NIE's dip in art education!!! im now an untrained teacher, starting in march. goodness. i cant wait. dis is lyk a miracle, a drim come true. and as ive promised, i will now officially quit my nite job. (coz dats wat i promised Allah if i get thru e interviews!!!) now i haf to be on my best behaviour as im on contract for about 1-1 1/2 yr before they'll decide to bond me wif NIE for 3yrs and make me a full-pledged teacher. wooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wish me luck guys. [winkz :P]
niwaes. new year. hmph. duno wer, wif who, wat wuld i b doing to celebrate dis new beginning. i hope it wuld b sumtg new.
oh well. sumtg good oreadi happened. gez wat? i got accepted into NIE's dip in art education!!! im now an untrained teacher, starting in march. goodness. i cant wait. dis is lyk a miracle, a drim come true. and as ive promised, i will now officially quit my nite job. (coz dats wat i promised Allah if i get thru e interviews!!!) now i haf to be on my best behaviour as im on contract for about 1-1 1/2 yr before they'll decide to bond me wif NIE for 3yrs and make me a full-pledged teacher. wooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wish me luck guys. [winkz :P]
22 December, 2006
ok. new day. new thots. ive decided to leave both of dem. its easier on me. so guys, yesh im single n available.
secondly. i mite be going for an op end of dis year due to tabular mass cyst shadowing my womb. no wonder pregnancy is such a hard thing for me. hehe. went for an ultrasound yesterday n dat goddamn ting is happily resting der n growing lyk a kid. hekz. next week is another appt wif e doc n we'll see wen im scheduled for e op. let's hope not on new year.
n yesh. xmas is ard e weekend n we're forced to werk on sunday too. extended til 4 am. haix. tapi takpe. juz means xtra income for e holidays.
gona get a new organiser too for next year. hope its not as shity as 2006.
ciaoz.
secondly. i mite be going for an op end of dis year due to tabular mass cyst shadowing my womb. no wonder pregnancy is such a hard thing for me. hehe. went for an ultrasound yesterday n dat goddamn ting is happily resting der n growing lyk a kid. hekz. next week is another appt wif e doc n we'll see wen im scheduled for e op. let's hope not on new year.
n yesh. xmas is ard e weekend n we're forced to werk on sunday too. extended til 4 am. haix. tapi takpe. juz means xtra income for e holidays.
gona get a new organiser too for next year. hope its not as shity as 2006.
ciaoz.
dis has to be e longest-shortest week ive ever experienced. i noe u dun get me. well. everyting happened so fast i cant tink. im in a daze. since last fri, every single waking moment of mine is spent wif irul, lynn, najib n khairil. yesh. khairil yusof. hakz. even deove his honda integra ard ya noe. ok big deal. hehe. but yar. every single day, every waking moment all of us stick together. thru thick n thin. we eat e same ting. smoke e same cigs. slept in e same rm. my affections for em grew as each day passed by.
even more for irul coz he was always der. he was der to hold me close wen i fall asleep n he was der to kiz me gd morning.
e 4 of us even decided to rent a house to live in together since we get along so well together.
so many plans were made. xmas...new year...
tings ended today wen he saw me wif dd. 1 ting bout his immaturity is he duno wen to stay ard n wen to go. dd called me dis morning. (surprise. surprise.) i had an appointment at kk today n he was der wif me. den we went for dinner n talked bout us. it wasnt bout patching tings up but instead how we shuld settle dis e rite way. he said he was afraid i mite hurt him, n e best way is 2 juz go our seperate ways. but dis hart of mine, still mending n aching for him, wuldnt take dis as an answer. and much as i persuaded him, i noe dat dis relationship is almost as good as done.
so den he sent me home. irul was under ma blk waiting for me. den he saw us n he juz had to come n confront us. get dis straight. yes. even though ure wif me, u stil gotta remember dat dd n i r stil tied together. n foolishly, u thot dat by telling him every single intimate detail bout us, i wuld come back crawling to u after he left me. boy were u so wrong. u were so wrong coz our relationship had its own probs too. u still aint werking n u haf fines n debts to pay off. u cant kip on living off me while i go out n werk. evenmore, u touched me e wrong way. u hurt me physically.
now he's gone missing. everyone is looking for him. i cant contact him at all. he wun pik up my calls or answer my sms. god i juz pray dat he's safe from wateva mishaps.
between me n dd. i duno wat's gona happen 2 us. i duno if he's coming bk for gopd or juz playing ard wif my feelings again. but if he reali is juz playing ad, den i hope dat i wun hear from him again. all i noe now is dat he's got another gal. i wun b so selfish so as to take him away from her wen he's found happiness elsewer.
ann advised me to juz leave e both of dem n start afresh. n maybe, its tym dat i do juz dat.
even more for irul coz he was always der. he was der to hold me close wen i fall asleep n he was der to kiz me gd morning.
e 4 of us even decided to rent a house to live in together since we get along so well together.
so many plans were made. xmas...new year...
tings ended today wen he saw me wif dd. 1 ting bout his immaturity is he duno wen to stay ard n wen to go. dd called me dis morning. (surprise. surprise.) i had an appointment at kk today n he was der wif me. den we went for dinner n talked bout us. it wasnt bout patching tings up but instead how we shuld settle dis e rite way. he said he was afraid i mite hurt him, n e best way is 2 juz go our seperate ways. but dis hart of mine, still mending n aching for him, wuldnt take dis as an answer. and much as i persuaded him, i noe dat dis relationship is almost as good as done.
so den he sent me home. irul was under ma blk waiting for me. den he saw us n he juz had to come n confront us. get dis straight. yes. even though ure wif me, u stil gotta remember dat dd n i r stil tied together. n foolishly, u thot dat by telling him every single intimate detail bout us, i wuld come back crawling to u after he left me. boy were u so wrong. u were so wrong coz our relationship had its own probs too. u still aint werking n u haf fines n debts to pay off. u cant kip on living off me while i go out n werk. evenmore, u touched me e wrong way. u hurt me physically.
now he's gone missing. everyone is looking for him. i cant contact him at all. he wun pik up my calls or answer my sms. god i juz pray dat he's safe from wateva mishaps.
between me n dd. i duno wat's gona happen 2 us. i duno if he's coming bk for gopd or juz playing ard wif my feelings again. but if he reali is juz playing ad, den i hope dat i wun hear from him again. all i noe now is dat he's got another gal. i wun b so selfish so as to take him away from her wen he's found happiness elsewer.
ann advised me to juz leave e both of dem n start afresh. n maybe, its tym dat i do juz dat.
me n lynn @ dbl o....
lynNajib & iruLsha @ dbl o...
07 December, 2006
gez wat?!?!?!
found e url to e bitch who stole my tunang away..
ade kepatut mak aku ckp ok..
muker dasar pelacur sial..
aniwaes check it out..
http://www.friendster.com/35353921
found e url to e bitch who stole my tunang away..
ade kepatut mak aku ckp ok..
muker dasar pelacur sial..
aniwaes check it out..
http://www.friendster.com/35353921
04 December, 2006
Do you love someone?
>>i did...we got engaged n now he's dumping me.
Does he/she know it?
>>he shuld noe.
Simple or complicated?
>>damn complicated.
IN - THE - PAST - MONTH - HAVE - YOU
Bought something?
>>bought things yep...
Gotten sick?
>>was in e hospy in e 1st wk of october..does dat count?
Been hugged?
>>everyday..
Talked to an ex?
>>yep.him.im still pinning for him.
Missed someone?
>>definitely.even though he's hurt me so badly.
Failed a test?
>>last mth?nah.im a teacher.i fail people.hehe.
Ate cereal?
>>nope.suddenly got a craving for it now.
Gotten your hair cut?
>>yep. concave.so short now.
Nervous habits?
>>nah.
H A V E - Y O U - E V E R
Said "I Love you"?
>>lyk duh.
Given money to a homeless person?
>>not consciously.
Smoked?
>>yep.my lyf.
Waited all night for a phone call?
>>all nite n day man.
M A N N E R S
Do you swear?
>>yep.alot.
You cook your own food?
>>at tyms.
You like pepsi or coke?
>>coke.
You own a cat?
>>juz e license.
You spend your money ?
>>of coz.
Do you like to swim?
>>used to.
When you get bored do you call a
friend?
>>nah.
D O - Y O U - P R E F E R
Flowers or angels?
>>neither.
Gray or black?
>>black.
Color or black and white photos?
>>both is fine.
Hook up or love?
>>love.
Sunrise or sunset?
>>wen it sets.
M&Ms or Skittles?
>>skittles.
Jazz or classic?
>>none.
Being hot or cold?
>>hot.
Winter or Fall?
>>winter.
Left or right?
>>right.
Having 10 acquaintances or 2 best
friend?
>>2 best ones.
Sunshine or rain?
>>rain.
Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice
cream?
>>chocz.
Boys or girls?
>>both.
P E R S O N A L
Kissed someone in the past month?
>>yup.
Have u ever wanted to die?
>>coz of him. to end all dis misery.
Have u ever thought of killing someone?
>>myself.
Ever been in love?
>>yep.
Thought about getting married?
>>used to wen we got engaged on 1st jan den he cheated on me in june n shattered all my drimz. now he's leaving me for thailand.
Want to have kids?
>>lyk i said.
T H E - L A S T
Person u talked to on the phone?
>>ann kenit.some dirt to tell me.hurh.
>>i did...we got engaged n now he's dumping me.
Does he/she know it?
>>he shuld noe.
Simple or complicated?
>>damn complicated.
IN - THE - PAST - MONTH - HAVE - YOU
Bought something?
>>bought things yep...
Gotten sick?
>>was in e hospy in e 1st wk of october..does dat count?
Been hugged?
>>everyday..
Talked to an ex?
>>yep.him.im still pinning for him.
Missed someone?
>>definitely.even though he's hurt me so badly.
Failed a test?
>>last mth?nah.im a teacher.i fail people.hehe.
Ate cereal?
>>nope.suddenly got a craving for it now.
Gotten your hair cut?
>>yep. concave.so short now.
Nervous habits?
>>nah.
H A V E - Y O U - E V E R
Said "I Love you"?
>>lyk duh.
Given money to a homeless person?
>>not consciously.
Smoked?
>>yep.my lyf.
Waited all night for a phone call?
>>all nite n day man.
M A N N E R S
Do you swear?
>>yep.alot.
You cook your own food?
>>at tyms.
You like pepsi or coke?
>>coke.
You own a cat?
>>juz e license.
You spend your money ?
>>of coz.
Do you like to swim?
>>used to.
When you get bored do you call a
friend?
>>nah.
D O - Y O U - P R E F E R
Flowers or angels?
>>neither.
Gray or black?
>>black.
Color or black and white photos?
>>both is fine.
Hook up or love?
>>love.
Sunrise or sunset?
>>wen it sets.
M&Ms or Skittles?
>>skittles.
Jazz or classic?
>>none.
Being hot or cold?
>>hot.
Winter or Fall?
>>winter.
Left or right?
>>right.
Having 10 acquaintances or 2 best
friend?
>>2 best ones.
Sunshine or rain?
>>rain.
Vanilla ice cream or chocolate ice
cream?
>>chocz.
Boys or girls?
>>both.
P E R S O N A L
Kissed someone in the past month?
>>yup.
Have u ever wanted to die?
>>coz of him. to end all dis misery.
Have u ever thought of killing someone?
>>myself.
Ever been in love?
>>yep.
Thought about getting married?
>>used to wen we got engaged on 1st jan den he cheated on me in june n shattered all my drimz. now he's leaving me for thailand.
Want to have kids?
>>lyk i said.
T H E - L A S T
Person u talked to on the phone?
>>ann kenit.some dirt to tell me.hurh.
02 December, 2006
been away for dis past 3 nites. went to kl e 1st nite. den spent 2 more nites at chalet. haix. lama2 kena halau jugak aku dari umah nie. dey r mad at me coz me n dd sill havent settle things. latest update: he n me are thru.he's leaving to go thai for 18mths n decided to leave me. so i gez dats e end of us. he said he's afraid to cm bk for fear dat i might hurt him again. i noe ive hurt him wen he wanted me; yet now wen he's leaving i wan him back. im in a dilemma as to wat i reali want. i want my freedom; n i want him too thou i noe dis things dun mix. at tymes i fil lyk i reali wana cm bk to him n start everything afresh. yet sumtymes, remembering wat he did hurts me so much dat i juz wana rebel against him. i dunch nie why im facing dis. it hurts me so much wen he said we're thru. i always thot dat 1 day we'll get back together. gez i was wrong.
now im left wif 3 more weeks before my surgery. he said he wun be ard. i gez as much as i want him to be ard,its better dat he's not so dat maybe i culd mend my broken hart at e same tym too.
i've wished for a better life for me n a miracle to happen but dats unlikely to be now coz all my dreams had been shattered.
will be pretty bz next week. got classes at ngee ann for 3 mornings. uuuuurrrrggggghh. tho i love my job, im not exactly a veri morning person.
now im left wif 3 more weeks before my surgery. he said he wun be ard. i gez as much as i want him to be ard,its better dat he's not so dat maybe i culd mend my broken hart at e same tym too.
i've wished for a better life for me n a miracle to happen but dats unlikely to be now coz all my dreams had been shattered.
will be pretty bz next week. got classes at ngee ann for 3 mornings. uuuuurrrrggggghh. tho i love my job, im not exactly a veri morning person.