back home. bought a new wallet. carlo rino. costed me bout 50bux. sale mahhx. haix. but all my cards cant go in. i didnt wana get a long one coz im sick of all e long wallets i used to haf. love at 1st sight wif dis wallet but alas, not all my cards can go in even thou ders so many slots.

i love e design!

close up of e inside.

see?? alot of useless compartments. not even filled yet. now its bulging lyk a fat pig sitting on its hind legs. hmphhh. shuld haf gotten a long one. or one dat is bigger. haix. no point larh saying all dis now.

n by e way, if u noticed, e quality of my pix aint dat good. dats coz i juz bought my dream fone, w580i, n its camera is lyk oni 2mp. unlike my cybershot one. but i had to let go of e cybershot one fast coz value is dropping lyk crazy!

so i traded in cybershot n bought dis one. of coz, dis is not a pix of my fone, juz a dummie. but dis e color i chose and e walkman player is excellent. its so loud dat waking up in e mornings aint a problem anymore! i love dis phone!!!

i've not been sleeping well dis few days. tossing n turning. too much thinking. im up by 5.30 am, everyday, getting dressed to go to school, even thou classes starts at 1030am. i cant juz lie down, pretending to sleep. its too hard. one of dis days, i might juz die on e road whilst driving to school. almost had 2 accidents e day before yesterday. even lynn says i tink too much.

e ordeal aint over yet.

going to school everyday is a drag for me. i've become an anti-social wif as lil frenz as possible. which sux. alot. n its not lyk i wana isolate myself, but i fil lyk a black sheep in e classes. n 3 diff classes had a whole different lot of people. haix.

i still wana go to school and study and everything but my social status is making me depressed lyk crazy. being a social outcast is not wat i had in mind.

i dragged my feet around in school during break times to past e time. i had lunch on my own. e empty feeling filled my already-hollowed hart, and it hurts.

kinda pointless i bought e new phone. except for my family, no one calls me anyways.

i fil so lost. i am lost.

after e incident, i've come to realize how much my parents love me. how much my sis loves me. and how much i nid dis family. how i culd ever find e hart to leave dem in dat period of tym is beyond me. if only i had listened to dem, den maybe i wuldnt haf had to suffer.

i was so stupid to let love blind me dat way.

havent i learnt anything at all?

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