yesterday was his televisit.
& finally. finally, i got to see him.
after 2 long mths o get to see him.

gawd. i've missed him so much.
i missed him so damn much.
i'm missing him even now as i'm writing dis.

at first we both were too shy to talk to each other.
malu2 lah gitu. =)

his hair is short now. and black. hehe.
& he's building up his bod again.
he looks much, much better.
he looks like my old anwar.
e one i met a year ago.

den we exchanged afew words.
his smiles are e greatest 15th mth anniversary gift he culd ever gif me.
he asked if i missed him.
of coz i did!!

and he said i'm chubby.
hmph.
da agak da. bacin tul.

ooh. and he told mama to bring me every visit.
if can.
tee-hee.
to which mama responded,
why not juz chg e perm person.
chg it to me so dat she dun haf to come always.
and he said no.
mum first.
alah cute lah dia.


den mama told him bout his sentence.
his later released date.
e appeal didn't get thru.
he was sad.


reali, reali sad.


but we told him, we'll try harder.
we'll do anything else we can.


den he said to me, "B, i duduk setahun seh b."
i said i already noe. den he shrugged.
mama told him to be patient.
& pray.


it hurts to see him lyk dat.
to see his face suddenly fell.


if der's anything dat i can do, i wuld.
i reali wuld.

i wan him out e soon-est.
we've been away from each other far too long.


ya Allah.
please hear our pleads. please help us.
please release our loved one in feb.
e soonest u can.
please help us in dis moment.
hear our cries n pleads, please.
Amin.

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