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smacked.
23 October, 2007
yesterday was his televisit.
& finally. finally, i got to see him.
after 2 long mths o get to see him.
gawd. i've missed him so much.
i missed him so damn much.
i'm missing him even now as i'm writing dis.
at first we both were too shy to talk to each other.
malu2 lah gitu. =)
his hair is short now. and black. hehe.
& he's building up his bod again.
he looks much, much better.
he looks like my old anwar.
e one i met a year ago.
den we exchanged afew words.
his smiles are e greatest 15th mth anniversary gift he culd ever gif me.
he asked if i missed him.
of coz i did!!
and he said i'm chubby.
hmph.
da agak da. bacin tul.
ooh. and he told mama to bring me every visit.
if can.
tee-hee.
to which mama responded,
why not juz chg e perm person.
chg it to me so dat she dun haf to come always.
and he said no.
mum first.
alah cute lah dia.
den mama told him bout his sentence.
his later released date.
e appeal didn't get thru.
he was sad.
reali, reali sad.
but we told him, we'll try harder.
we'll do anything else we can.
den he said to me, "B, i duduk setahun seh b."
i said i already noe. den he shrugged.
mama told him to be patient.
& pray.
it hurts to see him lyk dat.
to see his face suddenly fell.
if der's anything dat i can do, i wuld.
i reali wuld.
i wan him out e soon-est.
we've been away from each other far too long.
ya Allah.
please hear our pleads. please help us.
please release our loved one in feb.
e soonest u can.
please help us in dis moment.
hear our cries n pleads, please.
Amin.
& finally. finally, i got to see him.
after 2 long mths o get to see him.
gawd. i've missed him so much.
i missed him so damn much.
i'm missing him even now as i'm writing dis.
at first we both were too shy to talk to each other.
malu2 lah gitu. =)
his hair is short now. and black. hehe.
& he's building up his bod again.
he looks much, much better.
he looks like my old anwar.
e one i met a year ago.
den we exchanged afew words.
his smiles are e greatest 15th mth anniversary gift he culd ever gif me.
he asked if i missed him.
of coz i did!!
and he said i'm chubby.
hmph.
da agak da. bacin tul.
ooh. and he told mama to bring me every visit.
if can.
tee-hee.
to which mama responded,
why not juz chg e perm person.
chg it to me so dat she dun haf to come always.
and he said no.
mum first.
alah cute lah dia.
den mama told him bout his sentence.
his later released date.
e appeal didn't get thru.
he was sad.
reali, reali sad.
but we told him, we'll try harder.
we'll do anything else we can.
den he said to me, "B, i duduk setahun seh b."
i said i already noe. den he shrugged.
mama told him to be patient.
& pray.
it hurts to see him lyk dat.
to see his face suddenly fell.
if der's anything dat i can do, i wuld.
i reali wuld.
i wan him out e soon-est.
we've been away from each other far too long.
ya Allah.
please hear our pleads. please help us.
please release our loved one in feb.
e soonest u can.
please help us in dis moment.
hear our cries n pleads, please.
Amin.
16 October, 2007
wishing all selamat hari raya aidil fitri.
not something to celebrate for me. right from the beginning.
even thou i've received letters from him & stuff.
more bad news were given to me by his mum e other day.
he wun b out till aug 08.
dats another 10mths.
10 long f**king mths.
we all expected in feb.
but he didnt get e program.
sedih lah.
2 bulan jek da pure torture.
apetah lagi 10mths???
kesian dia..
kesian me..
haishh.
im juz realli sad now.
i gez 080808 wun be happening for us.
is dis e fate dat God has written for me?
cant anything go right in my life?
not something to celebrate for me. right from the beginning.
even thou i've received letters from him & stuff.
more bad news were given to me by his mum e other day.
he wun b out till aug 08.
dats another 10mths.
10 long f**king mths.
we all expected in feb.
but he didnt get e program.
sedih lah.
2 bulan jek da pure torture.
apetah lagi 10mths???
kesian dia..
kesian me..
haishh.
im juz realli sad now.
i gez 080808 wun be happening for us.
is dis e fate dat God has written for me?
cant anything go right in my life?
11 October, 2007
its thursday morning. 2 days more to syawal.
kudos to all those who have made it.
for those who didnt, its payback time.
raya used to be a day filled wif joys & happiness.
becoz as kid, its collecting money time.
hehe.
unfortunately. raya now means a hole in my pocket.
haix.
wat i wuld gif to be a kid again.
hurhur. tak malu lah pulak.
aniwaes.
last mon was his visit.
after dat i went to his mum's place after buka.
we had a lil talk. of coz der were tears.
but things are cleared now.
n yesh. she's letting us continue our relationship. =)
insyAllah, 080808 i be joining e fam.
insyAllah lah kan.
its gona be tough.
but we're hanging in der.
also, she gave me his first letter to me.
dated 8th sept.
he said he regretted it. regretted e tings dat has happened.
& he resolved to change.
he also asked for my forgiveness.
he also thot it was over between us.
finally, he said if my hart is still in dis relationship, he hopes to see me wen he's released.
we're hoping it's in feb.
after his visit.
his mum & sis says dat he's stronger now.
physically & emotionally.
he aint crying anymore. gez he listened to me.
hehe.
next visit is on the 22nd oct.
his mum says if der was someone to care for adho, she'd bring me.
but dis time round will b televisit.
meaning we wun c him in person.
u people cant be dat dumb.
gez by e word tele-visit.
hurhur.
den yesterday after school, i had another surprise.
i received another letter from him.
dis time addressed to najib's house.
dated 1st oct.
he wrote dat he's happy to hear from me.
every letter is like a present to him.
hehe. cute lah dekni.
he's really happy dat im gona wait for him & dat i'm not giving up dis relationship.
e reason he asked for e album back is coz he thot dat i wanted out.
now dat everything else is cleared, its easier to communicate.
well. damn im happy.
im elated! =D
towards e end, he wrote:
"Pls bear in mind dat every part of my life misses u. I can hardly wait until we are together again & der arent enuf words in dis world to tell how i fil bout u but maybe dis will. I sincerely appreciate, treasure & luf u so much my beby dwaft."
& he ended it wif:
"maybe u say u still want me
maybe u say dat u dun
maybe we say it was over
but beby i can't let u go"
sejak biler lah dia da jadi mat jiwang ni..
hehe.
n yesh. i cried.
again.
10mins before buka.
tapi tak sengaja pe.
kire ok lah tu.
as much as he misses me, i miss him twice as much.
maybe even more.
can hardly wait for his return too.
k now gota go mandi.
bising lah mak aku ni.
kalau menjawab, nanti batal lah pulak puase aku ni.
till den.
ps: did i mention dat e toyota wish total repair cost adds up to $11k? =(
kudos to all those who have made it.
for those who didnt, its payback time.
raya used to be a day filled wif joys & happiness.
becoz as kid, its collecting money time.
hehe.
unfortunately. raya now means a hole in my pocket.
haix.
wat i wuld gif to be a kid again.
hurhur. tak malu lah pulak.
aniwaes.
last mon was his visit.
after dat i went to his mum's place after buka.
we had a lil talk. of coz der were tears.
but things are cleared now.
n yesh. she's letting us continue our relationship. =)
insyAllah, 080808 i be joining e fam.
insyAllah lah kan.
its gona be tough.
but we're hanging in der.
also, she gave me his first letter to me.
dated 8th sept.
he said he regretted it. regretted e tings dat has happened.
& he resolved to change.
he also asked for my forgiveness.
he also thot it was over between us.
finally, he said if my hart is still in dis relationship, he hopes to see me wen he's released.
we're hoping it's in feb.
after his visit.
his mum & sis says dat he's stronger now.
physically & emotionally.
he aint crying anymore. gez he listened to me.
hehe.
next visit is on the 22nd oct.
his mum says if der was someone to care for adho, she'd bring me.
but dis time round will b televisit.
meaning we wun c him in person.
u people cant be dat dumb.
gez by e word tele-visit.
hurhur.
den yesterday after school, i had another surprise.
i received another letter from him.
dis time addressed to najib's house.
dated 1st oct.
he wrote dat he's happy to hear from me.
every letter is like a present to him.
hehe. cute lah dekni.
he's really happy dat im gona wait for him & dat i'm not giving up dis relationship.
e reason he asked for e album back is coz he thot dat i wanted out.
now dat everything else is cleared, its easier to communicate.
well. damn im happy.
im elated! =D
towards e end, he wrote:
"Pls bear in mind dat every part of my life misses u. I can hardly wait until we are together again & der arent enuf words in dis world to tell how i fil bout u but maybe dis will. I sincerely appreciate, treasure & luf u so much my beby dwaft."
& he ended it wif:
"maybe u say u still want me
maybe u say dat u dun
maybe we say it was over
but beby i can't let u go"
sejak biler lah dia da jadi mat jiwang ni..
hehe.
n yesh. i cried.
again.
10mins before buka.
tapi tak sengaja pe.
kire ok lah tu.
as much as he misses me, i miss him twice as much.
maybe even more.
can hardly wait for his return too.
k now gota go mandi.
bising lah mak aku ni.
kalau menjawab, nanti batal lah pulak puase aku ni.
till den.
ps: did i mention dat e toyota wish total repair cost adds up to $11k? =(